Feelings

There's only one person that could cheer me up
but that person hates me.

Everyone tells me to let go and I want to.
It's just.
I was almost over it.
Then the feeling just jumped back
It's completely back.


God, I haven't seen your face for months.
Your hair grew.
It's kinda flat again;
I remember you cut it just to make it spiky
and that you said your hair used to be sharp when you were 12 and hadda flatten it 'cause teachers would think you were purposely spiking your hair.
Nothing much changed in your life.
You're still happy;
You can laugh without guilt You're just happy.
That's so pleasant
for you.

Because I was always the second choice.

You never actually loved me;